do it.

hurt me.

hurt me so i can get over you.

hurt me so bad that my heart breaks.

hurt me now till i scream in agony.

hurt me please, so i can finally cry these silent tears.

hurt me so i cant look at you anymore.

hurt me so i can finally have a life.

come on midin, you know you can do it.

to the greatest daddy in the world.

happy 51st birthday, daddy!

xoxo your son,
aaronparan

tricked?

have an awesome Halloween, guys!

if you're drinking, don't drive; and if you're driving, don't drink.. but this one's most important - BE NAUGHTY ;-) oh yeah.

xx.

breakkk.

time-out.

this has been a super duper busy week. i'm submitting 3 assignments by noon today, all of which i completed in 12 hours. i'm amazing, i know. haha.

then at about 2pm today, i'll be the emcee at Dyslexia Association of Sarawak's Resource & Learning Centre launch. i went there a couple of days ago and was thoroughly humbled by that experience (and slightly embarrassed that i never knew such a place existed). so i'm quite looking forward to doing this later. which reminds me, baju belum iron gik. heh.

then it's the weekend! a well-deserved break from it all :D yeay.

ooh, random but i think i know what i want for x'mas.

please daddy, please? ;)

like, whoa.

i didn't see that one coming.

no wait. i did. it's you anyway.

i trusted you, and this is what i get in return eh? well, i'm backing out. you can have what you want.

i sincerely hope you enjoy it while it lasts.

the prom.

prom night was sooo awesome. like totally. thank you to everyone who worked their asses off in making it a reality and also to those who believed in us & bought the tickets.

till next year, maybe?

SEGi College Sarawak Masquerade Prom Night 2009

This event, titled the SEGi College Sarawak Masquerade Prom Night 2009, is planned, organised and will be executed by the College's students for the students. It would take place on the 16th of October 2009, at the 9th Floor of Crown Towers, and would run in conjunction with the SEGi College Graduation Ceremony, which will be held at Riverside Majestic on the 17th.

Activities for this event will include three Lucky Draws, a Fashion Show, Club and individual performances during the event itself, as well as pre-launch events such as students' make-up sessions, short dance courses and other relevant activities which have taken place throughout the entire month of September.

***spring***

***summer***

***fall***

***winter***

Tickets are still available for a very reasonable rate of RM45 each but you can get a table for 10 at RM400 per table. Each ticket also comes with an RM5 discount voucher from Maison Monica Hair & Beauty Academy.

For tickets and/or info please call:
Shellyn Felicia - +6012 855 8583
Fabian Goh - +6016 886 5335
Aaron Paran - +6016 852 2547

SEGi College Sarawak Masquerade Prom Night 2009: A Night Where No One Needs To Know Who You Are - Unless You Want Them To.

blackout.

disclaimer: all the real names of people, places and events have been altered or abbreviated to protect the innocent. namely, me.

(via text message)
X: aaah blackout!
Y: luckily not at night. if not you can't see anything.
X: yeah but it's so hot i want to die.
Y: kan your room got aircon?
X: blackout -_________-"

update, update!

it's high time i made a proper post. enough with the emo stuff, i say. haha. okay, lets see. where do i start?

so many things have happened to me lately. one thing that stood out the most, was the results of my research paper. last semester, for the subject Law & Global Perspectives, i did a research paper on the concept of self-determination and whether it amounts to the right of secession to the aborigines in aussie. and i did this while i was in my 8-week attachment programme in a reputable law firm here in kuching. the results came out a couple of weeks ago and i scored a distinction! :D so yay for my very first A!!

back in august, during my holidays back home, i took a trip back to bario to see my grandparents and also in conjunction with the national day celebrations that was held there. i had such an awesome amazing time, despite gaining so much weight and going 20 shades darker. it was worth it, truly worth it :D heh. there was good food, and good company everywhere.

*** the beautiful school kids ***

*** the RELA team, consisting of the villagers themselves ***

*** the women folk also wanna tumpang glam ***

and now it's back in kuching for 3rd year, which will hopefully be done by next may. hooo yeah. so far so good, i'd say but then again maybe not. i don't want to jinx anything lah. i have 5 assignments left to do - and i'm telling you, i am the procrastinator extraordinaire, so yeah. teehee~

lesson.

one thing's for sure, we could sure learn a lot from them.

photos from my recent holiday back to Pa Dallih, Bario.

denied.

looks like i'm not attending my sister sigang's convocation in october.

it seems that my mother doesn't think it's important enough for me & my other sister to attend. and sigang is getting the vice-chancellor's award.

i have a feeling that despite all (false) assurances otherwise, i will be all alone at my own convocation.

truth hurts.

whoever said that money isn't important must have had a moment of insanity.

it's not everything, fine i'll give you that.

but it is the ONLY thing that makes the world go round & makes life worth living. not love, not family, hell.. not even God.

deal with it.

gucci, gucci, goo!

i got my customised gucci slip-ons by arthur @ http://damndirtyangel.blogspot.com yesterday and i'm absolutely and hopelessly in love with them. they're meticulously handpainted and although at a glance they may look ordinary (wtf la some of you -__-"), they're literally a work of art to me. heh.


i'm so thrilled by the fact that they have my name on it :D so they're mine, mine, mine in all sense of the word. awesome, right? it's like, nobody else in the world will have the exact same shoes as i do. oh yeahhh.


like i said, i'm totally in love with me new kicks. i mean, hello. how can i not be? :D

don't trust me.

taxi fares hiked up already *sigh* it's depressing to see RM15 coming out of my wallet to pay someone for a 5-10 minute trip. that's like RM3 a minute, man. and then there's still the trip back. granted, it's not my money but still. i could think of a million other better uses for it.

sometimes i wish my parents would just trust me and just let me have the car. i'm 23 (and i swear to God this is the ONLY time you will see me admit my real age) and i only have until next may to go but my parents still have trust issues with me, despite my proving that i'm good at what i do i.e. pass 10 papers in one sitting while juggling a life and being in a band.

i was talking to my cousin about it the other day and she said that, it's not so much as they can't trust me. it's that they don't want to. the realization hit me. and terribly saddened me. so why do i feel it's my fault?

mum wants me to move out to a new place, closer to school. but i'm thinking if they are the ones who refuse to trust me with a car, why am i the one dealing with it?

but no. i'm just taking it one day at a time. it can't be that bad :D

if this goes on the next semester though, i'll seriously be considering postponing my studies, maybe take some time to reflect on my choice of future profession. with obstacles like this (from my parents some more), maybe it's God tryna tell me that this isn't the right path for me?

metaphorically speaking..?

disclaimer: all the real names of people, places and events have been altered or abbreviated to protect the innocent. namely, me.

X: you know kah, the other day Z and i went to KFC. we ordered so much!
Y: wah. like how much?
X: i think.. we paid about RM80 for the two of us.
Y: o.O wow. that much?
X: yeah, but then after that we couldn't finish everything. so a lot ba.
Y: .. erm, normally i'd say your eyes are bigger than your stomach but in this case, we both know they're not *grins*
X: -_____-" oi.

Green International Festival Kuching 2009

hello guys! passive.fire is back and this time we were given the honour of being a part of an awesome event, and a very worthy cause.

on the 8th and 9th of august, there will be an event called the Green International Festival Kuching 2009 which is going to take place at the brand new yet-to-be-officially-launched Borneo Convention Centre Kuching.

from 10am to 7pm on both days, you will be able to gain free entrance to the exhibitions, which - as the event is so aptly called - will be on the environment, organic produce, the popular enzymes, health, 3R, art, technology, and energy. also there are going to be competitions not only for adults i.e. the Green Poster Competition, but also for children aged 6 to 12 years old i.e. the Card Design Competition.

the highlight of the event (but of course) is the Charity Concert on the 8th of august from 7.00pm till 11.00pm.

*click to see the image in its full hi-res glory*

the charity concert will feature local acts and talents such as passive fire (heh!), mayze, united kids of oi, orion burn, dyerbreed, venus and mars, dream machine, visualies and many more. so make sure to be there to show us some love and support the local music industry. because if you don't, who will? :D

tickets are priced at RM15, but if you want the VIP experience there are also tickets sold for RM20. and since this is a charity concert, all proceeds will go to Green Ribbon Association. so don't procrastinate and cepat-cepat grab your tickets now from Edwin Then @ 014-6866272 (p/s: i know this guy enough to know that he won't appreciate prank calls or texts - so consider yourself warned)

LimKokWing University will also be taking part in this event and the stage will also be graced by the models from the Breeze Model Search wearing hawt haute couture (ooh i like, i like!!) by LKW's own aspiring designers.

it's a worthy cause :D and in the word's of the late great MJ: make a better place for you and for me.

i'm hoping to see you all out there on saturday, august the 8th. it's a family-friendly event so bring your entire household along as well.

passive fire : in support of making the world a better place.

pas-t.

Dear Mr. PAS the Ignoramus,

Wearing a jubah that does not flatter ones figure is NOT the definition of 'pakai molek' and neither does it make you more cultured or civilised than the rest of us (cos you're not). You obviously need to be schooled and hit very very hard with my Louie manbag. Yeah, we wear loincloths..

.. Because we're proud of what God gave us underneath them i.e BALLS :D and you're just jealous. Haha. Cos when the wind blows and if YOU were wearing our loincloths.. Well, it'll just be sad and pathetic.

sour grapes!!

I don't know why i even bother typing this out. It's not like you'd be able to understand English anyway *sigh* so sad.

organic.

disclaimer: all the real names of people, places and events have been altered or abbreviated to protect the innocent. namely, me.

F: where do they get sago ah?
A: from the tree lah.
F: ohh. u mean when they pluck from the tree, straightaway like that one is it?
*cricket sounds*
F: no ah?
A: .. *bursts out into laughter*

edit:
*one day later*
F: eee why you people laugh at me? it doesn't come straight from the tree meh? neh the red red seed thing one ba right?
R: huh? that is not sago lah. that is biji saga!!

booked.

i'm finally free enough to do some leisure reading. haha. in other words, i want to read anything (and if possible, everything) that is as far away from law as practically possible. so now i'm reading this:


and i can't stop laughing! i mean, people can condemn chick-lits as shallow and not intellectually-challenging but to hell with that. i read to relax, not to challenge my mind! so this book is, to me at least, an awesome read. it's great value too, i bought it in hard cover (oh yeah!) for less than RM30. and i would happily read it again and again.

sunny day?

another long overdue update. i mean, it's not like i'm super busy or anything, i just can't seem to find the time to update the blog. i do update my twitter quite regularly though, so if you have an account, follow me :D

yeah so as you know, i'm doing my student attachment with a well-known law firm here in kuching. last week was my very very first time in court. i was so super excited. until i was told that the dress code was strict black and white. my eyes widened in dismay. i do not wear white i.e. i do not have a white shirt hanging in my walk-in. so i dragged my adik sayang with me as we (i) drove around bandaraya kuching to look for a decent white shirt (preferably of cotton-silk blend) and found none. yeah found a few linen ones but no way in hell am i gonna wear a linen white shirt into court. but i digress. i FINALLY found one - it was the last one in the store, praise the Lord it was in my size *phew* so i bought it immediately. so last week, i made my first appearance in court looking like:


and i promise you, in the near future, there will not be many more chances you'll get to see me in white. hahaha.

then on saturday, i attended the Rainforest World Music Festival! w0oh0o~ i had so much fun there. there were like 245674748343209 people (i swear i'm not even exaggerating). i was mask-free, but took like, a super huge vitamin C tablet beforehand so i'm not infected with H1N1 *coughsniffsneeze* here's a photo of the awesome crowd on saturday night. haha incidentally also known as, 'the night aaronparan had too many tequila shots.' ermm, but that's another story for another time :D heh.


i need new sunnies. i mean, yeah. i think i do. not really sure lah, but i just *think* that i *might* need them.

i'm thinking of getting wayfarers. awesome retro with a slightly macho edge, a tribute to the first metrosexuals - though they prolly didn't know it back then. i mean, at least that's what i'd like to think. heh. also preferably something cheap lah. kan daddy, kan mummy? heheh.

so random this post. i like, i like.

the best of bolehland

yesyes i've gotta say..

.. that malaysia definitely boleh.

*growl*

oh godddddd. i miss home.

milan, come to me.

i'm into the third week of my internship now :D hehe. so far, so good (i think). i kinda like wearing the long sleeved dress shirts and ties etc, though i gotta say: i miss the freedom of movement that tees and jeans give me. yesterday during lunch i went for a game (or five) of pool and my aim was all out of whack. haha. but i digress.

in my free time last week i was browsing thru some websites. as you all should know (should, should, should) the milan fashion week was just concluded and this season, men's clothes were more or less at the forefront of many designers' shows.

here are a few that caught my attention:

Emanuel Ungaro

Emanuel Ungaro

Moschino

Emporio Armani

D & G (by Dolce & Gabbana)

Dsquared2

incredibly awesome. so for my birthday next year paham-paham la yea? teehee~ *sigh* what i wouldn't give to walk around looking that fabulous.

i'm on fb as i'm typing this out and the topic over there seems to be nasi lemak -__-" it's barely even 11am and i can already hear my tummy growling. gaah.

this is a very very random but nonetheless well-thought out post, no? LOL.

only in miri.

i'm not homesick.. but i have to admit, i do miss certain aspects of life in miri. being away from home is never easy, but i guess it takes some getting used to. as time goes on, routine takes over and thoughts of home are no longer in the mind. which is not the point la kan?

hahaha. anyway my main point is - and you'll see how it has almost nothing to do with the opening paragraph - there are some things in miri that are not replaceable. only in miri can i have this:


good old mee goreng basah. super gila nyaman, i'm telling you *sigh* sinfully irresistable.

mum, dad, since i got thru my exams in flying colours, can i come home for a weekend, please? pretty, pretty please? :D

blessed.

i know it's physically impossible but i feel so blessed, i'm practically floating on air now.

about a month ago, i took a major gamble and took 10 papers.

today, i found out that it wasn't such a daft move after all. after tensely waiting and twiddling my thumbs, the results were (finally) released today.

i passed each paper. each and every single one of them. words cannot express how thankful and grateful i am for your thoughts and prayers. your support means the world to me :D i'm on top of the world and it feels awesome.

yay! <-- no, seriously. yay!